6 Months (Pics)
I was six months out on Saturday. My weight loss has slowed considerably this month and I was down 5 pounds for the month. My old eating habits are creeping back into my life. I decided to start therapy to get some help sorting through my emotional eating issues. On the plus side, I am more active. Here are my monthly pictures. Looking at the monthly comparisons helps me keep my journey in perspective.
Kay
You've done a GREAT job so far....keep up the hard work, it's paying off!!!
--gina
5'1" -- HW 195/SW 187/GW 115 July 08/CW 121 Dec 2012
******GOAL*******
Starting BMI between 35 and 40ish?
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DS on Aug 9, 2007 with Dr. Hazem Elariny
on 3/22/11 7:33 pm
Now are U over eating to protect Urself ? Is some of that emotional eating related to childhood boundary violation issues ( WAYYY too often in the case of MO women and men Im afraid ) ...
how is Hubs dealing with the gorgeous desireable woman whose emerging ? How are You handling being her ? It both temptation laden and pressure laden ... and often its so tempting just to crawl back into that bag of FRitos and that boxy Brooks Brothers suit ....
SOO proud of U.....
I'm not sure why I'm overeating. I really had that "Beaver Cleaver" upbringing...two parents married for 49 years, stay-at-home mom, no sexual abuse, no physical abuse, no emotional abuse, strong family ties. No significant trauma. That's why I thought it might be a good idea to get some professional help.
DH is wonderful. We went out with a large group of friends this weekend. Many of them had not seen me in several months. To add to it, I actually wore make-up. Full face, eyes, lips the whole sha-bang. (Its not that I can't. I just usually don't.) People were gushing. I mean gushing over my appearance. It was almost embarrassing...almost. I have to admit. I loved saying thank you. I had several people say, "You look beautiful." and DH would say, "she's always been beautiful. Now she's beautiful and healthy." Having him support me like that was the BEST. He's loved me through thick and thin.
I think I'm handling my changes pretty well. I see them in the pictures every month, but not so much in the mirror. I feel them in my clothing. I'm struggling finding pants that fit. I forgot that coming out of plus sizes I'd have to consider the cut of the pants too. I'm not complaining. I'm just saying.
In a nutshell, I have a great marriage. All the kids are grown, on their own and doing well. We have grandkids coming out of our ears. No money problems. My job satisfaction is mediocre, but the rest of my life is damn good.
I'm not sure why I am self-sabotaging, but I didn't work this hard to lose 80 pounds just to gain them back. The regain is my biggest fear. Definitely time for someone to help me get inside my head.
Stay with the plan and it will happen, doesn't matter who gets there first, to finish is to win.
66 yrs young, 4'11" hw 220, goal 120 met at 12 months, cw 129 learning Maintainance
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I just don't want to regain the weight. I've been toying with the idea of OE too. I'm not sure I'm ready for it, which sounds so ridiculous as I type this, but it is what it is.
Thank you for your input and concern!!!
Kay